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| Sunday, May 28th, 2006 | | 11:27 am |
visit to new york was pretty good overall. my cousin stephanie is pitting one parent against the other and having a heck of a time doing it too. why fuck with something that works, right? talking to my aunt about the issues i have been having with my parents is a little frustrating. she's too full of psycho-babble information to really be of any use in the discussion. its been really nice having the car to myself. once tom gets back from the DR its gonna be a more tense situation regarding the car and getting places...oh well. last night was kinda terrible. tried to hang out with noel's friends...party and sleep over kinda thing. good idea but poor execution. one of the guys likes to "test" new people but frankly crossed the line. you don't attack the religious beliefs of someone you've just met, especially when they say i don't want to have this conversation. not only did i say i don't want to have this conversation i said i'm not going to, yet the conversation about me and the issue continued without me. there also was a complete lack of respect toward me and in directly towards noel. if i make a point of saying please don't do something, this time it was throwing things at me, not once or twice but thrice or more and it continues it clearly show that they don't respect me nor noel as the friend he wants to bring into the group. i mean i'm not saying that he's a horrible person or anything or that i won't hang out with them again but i wasn't gonna just sit there and take it. in the state of mind and health that i was in i just really was having a shitty time. so i went home. i didn't mean for it to be such a bitch move but i was inadvertently cock blocking so i think it was the best choice. being the only girl also made for some awkward in this particular situation. it also is unfortunate timing...had this been last year i probably would have just stood there and took it all night, but this year is different. i am different. i am tired of taking shit from people. i mean if i already have to take shit from my family and some of my friends, i'm certainly not gonna take it from a stranger. especially when i was trying to tactfully assert myself and rectify the situation. i've made strides in my own life that i'm not gonna compromise for the sake of everyone getting along. Current Mood:  geeky | | Thursday, May 25th, 2006 | | 6:25 pm |
oh stars hollow
so i'm back in ct...and actually happy about it. started work in danbury yesterday, job is pretty easy (for $11 an hour i'd do pretty much anything for the summer). new house in westville is very nice. my room is huge and i don't know what i'm gonna do with it yet, as in furniture placement. going back to montreal to get the rest of my crap (of which i own way too much)next weekend, then its ct for the long haul. had dinner last night with chris and noel which was really nice. it's good to be around friends i haven't seen in a while. work is ridiculously early in the morning, and by that i mean starts at 8...although today i arrived 55 mins early, my dad told me to leave by 6:15 and that gets me to danbury at 7:05...got a bagel which took 20 mins and then went to work bc i had nothing else to do. too bad i don't get overtime. haven't seen the rest of my friends yet or the family. soon enough though Current Mood:  peaceful | | Monday, January 23rd, 2006 | | 1:22 pm |
in quite a pissy mood. combo of feeling sick and like the bacteria that grows on shit. i apologize in advance for any bitchiness, its not really that personal, just one of those days....sigh Current Mood:  cranky | | Saturday, December 17th, 2005 | | 7:31 am |
Current Mood: geeky | | Wednesday, November 30th, 2005 | | 10:38 am |
we have moved far beyond the mountains of crush and into the land of smitten :-D Current Mood:  smitten | | Sunday, November 20th, 2005 | | 12:21 pm |
i'm completely in crush mode. its ridiculous and great all at the same time. i forgot how nerve wrecking this stage is. my stomach in knots, always thinking about what he's thinking about. over analyzing every little thing that happens. and yet i couldn't be happier about it all. Current Mood: crushing | | Friday, November 11th, 2005 | | 12:22 am |
| Your Birthdate: March 19 | 
You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.
You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.
Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.
You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself.
Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence
Your weakness: Suspicion of others
Your power color: Eggplant
Your power symbol: Spade
Your power month: October |
| | 12:20 am |
big update coming....in no mood to do it now though | | 12:20 am |
| Your World View |
You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content.
You value kindness and try to live by your ideals.
You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material.
You respect truth and are flexible.
You like people, and they can readily make friends with you.
You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you. |
Current Mood:  drained | | Tuesday, October 25th, 2005 | | 11:52 pm |
| | Monday, October 10th, 2005 | | 10:55 pm |
 You want a Beautiful love, soft but passionate. You are probably very old fashioned and polite. You can't stand rude people, wolf whistles are to you only dis-respective and immature. You love nature and everything beautiful in life. You will fall for a guy that makes you forget about the rest of the world. Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?
*cough*rate*cough* ^^ What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~ brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood:  calm | | Friday, October 7th, 2005 | | 12:02 am |
paper writing is so difficult in the age of technology.....there are just so many distractions....what's a girl to do? Current Mood: nerdy | | Sunday, October 2nd, 2005 | | 11:50 pm |
gotta love procrastinating polly
i found this while procrastinating on the facebook... The white man said, "Colored people are not allowed here." The black man turned around and stood up. He then said: "Listen sir....when I was born I was BLACK," "When I grew up I was BLACK," "When I'm sick I'm BLACK," "When I go in the sun I'm BLACK," "When I'm cold I'm BLACK," "When I die I'll be BLACK." "But you sir." "When you're born you're pink," "When you grow up you're white," "When you're sick, you're green," "When you go in the sun you turn red," "When you're cold you turn blue," "And when you die you turn purple." "And you have the nerve to call me colored?" The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away.... Current Mood:  curious | | Saturday, October 1st, 2005 | | 10:00 pm |
wouldn't that be sweet
while checking away messages, as one does when they are bored, i came across this and really liked the sentiment..... Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her." Current Mood:  hopeful | | Monday, September 26th, 2005 | | 8:01 am |
the Wit
(57% dark, 30% spontaneous, 10% vulgar) | your humor style:
CLEAN | COMPLEX | DARK
You like things edgy, subtle, and smart. I guess that means you're
probably an intellectual, but don't take that to mean pretentious. You
realize 'dumb' can be witty--after all isn't that the Simpsons'
philosophy?--but rudeness for its own sake, 'gross-out' humor and most
other things found in a fraternity leave you totally flat.
I guess you just have a more cerebral approach than most. You have the perfect mindset for a joke writer or staff writer.
Your sense of humor takes the most thought to appreciate, but it's also the best, in my opinion.
You probably loved the Office. If you don't know what I'm
talking about, check it out here: http://www.bbc.co.uk/comedy/theoffice/.
PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Jon Stewart - Woody Allen - Ricky Gervais
The 3-Variable Funny Test!
- it rules -
If you're interested, try my latest:
The Terrorism Test
| | | My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 65% on darkness | | You scored higher than 12% on spontaneity | | You scored higher than 1% on vulgarity |
| Current Mood:  sore | | Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 | | 1:35 am |
it turns out i'm not wonder woman afterall....
i wrote a poem tonight and cried. not because of the poem but well i dont know why. i feel lost. maybe its the pms but how much can i really shift the blame that way. i do feel lost. lost in a sea of emotion. lost in the void of detachment. i want the pain to end but i dont know how to end it. i'm not talking suicide here or anything but i do want it to end. i'm not happy but i play it on tv. not as well as i used to for some reason. i'm tired. not just physically tired but emotionally tired. i'm so sick of being a doormat, of accepting certain things and making special exceptions for people. like my ex roomie jon for instance. i've had his chair in my possession per his request for almost 3 mos now. when my mother was here we put it out in the hallway bc it was crowding up my living room. just for reference the only person who uses the back hallway is me and its on the interior of my building. a place only entered by people who have keys or that belong here. anyway, gabby told nick and jon that the chair was in my hallway and they both got pissed. wtf? they were like oh so its out for anyone to steal or ash out their cigarettes on....i mean come on, who does that? normal people dont do that kind of thing. and i mean i was trying to do something nice. if the chair was so fucking important to him why doesnt he walk the few blocks to my apt and pick up the fucking thing. but no, i'm the bad guy in this. and then this morning, i needed my course catalogue bc i needed to look up some stuff about my program, to make sure i graduate....and where is it? after 2 mos its still with jon! *insert angry face and voice* gabby's response was well you know hes spoiled and selfish you should just walk over there and get it. NO!FUCKING!WAY! i dont mean to be petty but its the principle. i'm tired of making exceptions for jon bc he's not on the ball, bc he's been snorting too much ritalin lately and cant form a coherent sentence. not my problem. i mean i have to start somewhere and unfortunately for him and his chair this is where i'm starting. if its not removed from my apt soon i'm putting it outside. i'm so sick of being trampled on. i mean i try to be a nice person. to do the right thing. be kind to everybody but frankly its difficult at times. where is the line between caring/thoughtful/helpful/kind and being someone's bitch? i mean at least if i was getting something out of it i wouldnt mind being someones bitch that much...i mean g-d knows ive played that part before, memorized the lines even, but the fulfillment in knowing that jon finally gets his act together enough to pick up a piece of his property, a shitty old chair, is somewhat lacking....i mean i realize my expectations are a bit high. i cant expect people to treat me the same way that i treat them. its unfair to expect that. but i mean part way, at all. maybe a little appreciation, anything would be nice. and i'm not saying i dont have friends that appreciate me and let me know that, and i'm not trying to take that for granted but..... i think i have to stop looking for things that just arent there. Current Mood:  contemplative | | Monday, September 12th, 2005 | | 1:23 pm |
Daily Overview September 12, 2005 A dramatic change is in order at your workplace. This could mean more money, more responsibility, a bigger office -- or all three. It might mean something as drastic as a change of locale. Whatever it is, you're up for it. Daily Extended September 12, 2005 Taking 'no' for an answer is simply not within your rulebook right now, and you're more than willing to go to any lengths to get the feedback you need. Fortunately, a take-no-prisoners approach isn't necessary at this time -- your formidable determination, not to mention the almost unfair amounts of charm you have on your side pretty much ensure that you get your way without even having to raise a finger. Oh, okay -- you might have to raise one finger. Daily Single's Love September 12, 2005 Who's your mentor in the realm of romance? What -- you don't have one? Think of the wisest, happiest-in-love person you know. Make them your confidante, your personal advisor or just your role model. Current Mood: annoyed | | Sunday, September 11th, 2005 | | 11:52 am |
Daily Overview September 11, 2005 Good luck is coming your way, and as you experience one bout of fantastic fortune after another, you'll feel your momentum starting to build. Keep your focus in order to maintain your forward motion. Daily Extended September 11, 2005 Keep being fickle and you could end up in quite a pickle -- and not the nice crunchy kind that comes with a good deli sandwich, either. No, this might be the sour, stale kind where you try to please everyone and end up pleasing no one (including yourself) by avoiding a decision that's been dogging your heels for ages. Give up trying to make everybody happy. What would make you happy? Now follow through on that decision. Daily Single's Love September 11, 2005 Your luck in love is very much intertwined with your attentiveness right now. Be extra aware of what you hear and feel -- and what you say. The right thing to do is right at your fingertips. i dont know how i feel about my life being compared with a pickle..... Current Mood: mellow | | Wednesday, September 7th, 2005 | | 11:21 am |
i think they're trying to tell me something...
Daily Overview September 07, 2005 It's time to break a lifelong habit, especially if it's doing you more harm than good. Go slowly, and acknowledge even the smallest movements as progress. It took you a while to build this habit, and it'll take you time to break it. Daily Extended September 07, 2005 You have a profound capacity for intimacy, but make sure that you're not sacrificing too much of yourself just to keep a relationship or friendship in balance. You're the ultimate diplomat, so that may go against your nature, but it's important that you conserve your resources. Talk openly about a difficult issue that's lingering between the two of you, and you may just heal an emotional rift that has been driving a wedge into your partnership. Daily Single's Love September 07, 2005 The stars say your heart and mind can find a beautiful balance now, despite whatever little romantic predicaments may come your way. Take it all in stride and keep moving down your path. Current Mood:  tired | | Tuesday, September 6th, 2005 | | 11:51 am |
alright already, i get the point....
Daily Overview September 06, 2005 You're the one with ultimate say over who is and who isn't in your personal life. Make sure you figure out which relationships can be saved, and which need to go. It won't be easy, but you'll have the people in your life who you really want there. Daily Extended September 06, 2005 As overwhelmed as you might currently feel, try to get past a self-imposed sense of inadequacy that may be nothing more than your fears in a clever disguise. Your friends and coworkers see a superstar, and rightly so. You're about to be handed an opportunity that's tailor made for your skills and gifts -- don't let strong (and undeserved) feelings of self-confidence prevent you from taking what's rightfully yours. Daily Single's Love September 06, 2005 Be assertive about what you want in your love life -- and what you don't. The stars say now's the time for looking to your romantic future and paving the way for some major improvements. Current Mood:  possible food poisoning |
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